Sound: Delain – See Me In Shadow
Mood: Sad/Angry
State: Numb
Appearence: Not Bad
Let’s get to the point: my life’s miserable at the moment. I get angry continuously and I don’t know why … guess its a phase. I’m sad all the time and the times I free my mind off these thing is when I watch a movie, reading a book or writing. Music helps, but sometimes it gets me thinking and it makes it worse. You can’t talk to anyone, no-one tries to help you, they only try to get over the argument and enjoy their day. Some people just enjoy making you feel miserable and even though I counter attack its just as if I am the bad person in the whole situation. I’m surrounded by self-centred people.
The solution might be to cut certain people out of my life completely – and I so wish to do that – maybe all of them, but for me meeting new people is kind of difficult. I am a shy person to a decent extent – i.e. NOT one of those people who don’t answer back if talked to.
The thing is I’ve been listening to other people’s problems for years now, trying to help them and support them throughout the whole situation, however now that I need someone they’re all gone. No one is there. Its the typical “friend” situation. You need them, and they run away. I don’t want anyone to pity me or something – I think its insulting to pity a person anyway.
I’ve been feeling this thing inside for several years now. I thought I could hide it or keep it inside myself for long enough, but it seems to be taking over me.
I don’t know, guess I’m weird or something. Maybe I am the problem.
Cya Until the next blog … ciao!
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